My Purpose

As we get older we may find ourselves questioning our paths. I know that I have. I had so many things happen that required me to be in that moment. That required me to fight through. These things took a lot of energy.

When you suffer injury at a young age, it is a bitter pill to swallow. First you think about surviving. Surviving surgeries. Surviving the bills coming in while being unable to work. Surviving infections. Surviving pain. Surviving withdrawals from pain medications. Secondly, you think of all the things that are no longer available to you. Things that were a big part of who you were.

You have a lot of down time while recovering between surgeries to think about life. To worry. To feel all that weight on you. But you just fight through.

These things changed my path. I don’t know who I would be, had these things not happened. I do not allow myself to think like that. That is like wishing. This isn’t a fairytale. It is life. You make the best with the cards you are dealt.

I didn’t always think like this though. I felt like all of these things that happened, defined me. Perhaps they do but not in the way I once thought. I saw it all as a negative. I stopped dreaming of what could be. I was once told, “we make the best decisions we can with what we know at that time.” I understand this more than ever. I let the negativity of these situations control me. Not anymore.

Do I still struggle at times. Of course I do. With chronic pain comes depression. Unfortunately, they go hand in hand. Another thing to fight. But I do fight through.

I share my painful experiences now. There was a time, I struggled talking about it. It was too much for me. It was almost like reliving everything all over again.

But I’ve learned a lot about myself over the years. I fight. It’s who I am. I’m proud of who I am today. I’m proud of the fight I have in me. I’m proud that I have chosen to look upon all of these things as building blocks for my strength rather than things that defeated me. I haven’t been defeated. I’ve been changed.

Maybe that is my purpose. To share these experiences and help others change their way of thinking. To help others find their way out of that dark place.

Many blessings!

33 thoughts on “My Purpose”

  1. I am very aware of chronic pain which I live with over 22 years now. I also attend Pain Courses at the University Hospital in Edmonton, Alberta, Canada. They help us deal with living with chronic pain through the psychology of it all. They show us how to accept the condition and how to deal with it by providing alternatives to push it away. We still need to live our lives. I have been trying as I became a self published author and blogger. I still take pain medication which is helping to kill some of the pain. I really liked reading your post which is very well written and created by someone who lives with chronic pain. Keep helping others that is great thing to do.

    1. Thank you so much! That means so much to me. Kudos to you! You seem to have a very positive outlook in how to live with chronic pain. It’s not easy. One thing I’ve always said, you get used to living with a degree of pain. It’s like a second skin. It’s a part of you. You learn how to do things differently or what things you should avoid. It’s a life changing condition. But I really do believe it’s how you look at it. Always must be thankful for what we have and to not focus on what has been lost. Many blessings to you!

  2. What a wonderful post! I have gone through the same thing. Being disabled for many years, pain, surgery well you know. I took what I learned from my situation and decided to work with adults with developmental disabilities. Although my disability is physical it made me so understanding to my clients needs which I have had for 10 years now. Thank you!

    1. Thank you so much!

      I’m sorry for all you’ve had to go through but how awesome that you help others. How rewarding that must be. Everyone needs to feel they have a purpose. When injury occurs that changes you, it leaves you feeling useless. But we are not. We are just different than before and have to redefine ourselves.

  3. I think our purposes are something we have to struggle to find or it has no value and we have no idea what it is and can just stumble in the dark. I hope you find it Laura 🙂 xo

      1. There’s nothing like a bit of humour and sharing… but do you think that awesome Laura has even more to do? Something to show the world that is even more amazing?

  4. “Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God, and keep his commandments: for this is the whole duty of man.”
    ‭‭Ecclesiastes‬ ‭12:13‬ ‭KJV‬‬

    This scripture has been a blessing to me. I wanted to share it with you!

  5. I admire this in people. I’m not really a fighter as such. I’m a plodder. I just show up every day to do boring things while other people take brave exciting risks. They may crash or succeed. I just plod on. Right now I’m in an okay place from simply being there and doing the things. This is yet another reason (one of many) that men don’t find me interesting.