Amen! Amen! Amen! I most definitely am. I do understand that a degree of trust must be handed over when you allow people into your world. At one point I hated the idea of this. I’ve experienced enough in my life that I am at a point that my heart no longer leads the way. My brain and instincts do. My heart seems to be on stand-by these days.
I’m not a cold person by nature. To some this may sound as if I am. Far from it. I prefer to look at it as wisdom. I am wiser because of all of the things I have experienced. Because of these things, I no longer put faith in others. I put faith in myself.
No, this is not cold-hearted. I would say this is wise. I pay my own bills, I take care of myself, I do not need anyone to care for me. If someone wants to be a part of my life, the way I see it, they better bring something to the table. They better be ready to prove they are worthy of my time. My time is my most precious asset. Everyone should unapologetically reserve time only for those that prove themselves worthy of it.
Some might say I have trust issues. No, I have Deja Vu issues. There’s a big difference.