The attached article is a beautifully written synopsis of my nephew and my niece. Six years ago today Adrien left this earth. If you ever want to know what strength is-look to these two siblings.
Adrien was born with a heart defect that resulted in him growing up having multiple surgeries. Later he would have a heart transplant.
Sarah is a breast cancer survivor. Unfortunately, the cancer has returned and she has been undergoing treatments for it once again. She knows the reality of her situation and faces it with courage and grace.
I think about my sister and Adrien and Sarah’s dad. Again, such strength. My sister came into their lives when they were still young kids. She loves them as if they were her own. No parent should have to experience the loss of a child. I can only imagine the pain they feel.
Love your kids. Make them your #1 priority. Give them all the love you have. Adrien knew he was loved. Sarah knows she is loved.
As the holidays approach, I am consumed by the thought that nothing will ever be the same. My family lost my Mom this year. I’ve been divorced a year now. A lot of changes. A lot of loss. Losing my Mom is by far the worst. I miss talking to her. Even if I wasn’t always crazy about her opinion. I guess that’s just life. We live. We love. We lose.
“It’s better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. “-thank you Lord Tennyson.
My Mom will always be with me. The love will always be with me. As long as her memory lives within, she lives on. For those of you who have suffered loss, hold onto those memories. Carry them with you. Start new traditions for the holidays if it helps. Find what’s right about upcoming holidays. Surround yourself with those that you love and celebrate together.
It’s hard to see our parents get older and become frail. It’s even harder to see them suffer with illness. I began feeling weak and thinking negatively seeing my Mom in the hospital. She looks so fragile. Her now paper thin skin bruises easily with touch. Seeing her lay there helpless and barely able to speak hit me hard. For her to not be able to speak above a whisper tore me up inside. She’s got an uphill battle waging right now but she just keeps trying and keeps going and little by little starting to see glimpses of her true self. Especially if you try to tell her how to do something. My Mom will let you know, she’s got this!
I have been through so many changes in the last year and 1/2. A divorce, lost friendships, from a house to an apartment. A lot of tears have been shed. A lot of screams let loose from the depths of me. I just kept trying to find the silver lining through it all.
I am working towards a goal. Staying focused on what I need to do for me. It’s a bit scary to have all decisions fall on me and me alone. At times it is overwhelming. I take a deep breathe and remember that I can do this! I will do this!
It’s okay to be scared. Everyone gets scared. But don’t let it stop you from moving towards your dreams.
No matter what is happening in your life, you have to remember who you are and believe in yourself, always.