It’s hard to see our parents get older and become frail. It’s even harder to see them suffer with illness. I began feeling weak and thinking negatively seeing my Mom in the hospital. She looks so fragile. Her now paper thin skin bruises easily with touch. Seeing her lay there helpless and barely able to speak hit me hard. For her to not be able to speak above a whisper tore me up inside. She’s got an uphill battle waging right now but she just keeps trying and keeps going and little by little starting to see glimpses of her true self. Especially if you try to tell her how to do something. My Mom will let you know, she’s got this!
I have been through so many changes in the last year and 1/2. A divorce, lost friendships, from a house to an apartment. A lot of tears have been shed. A lot of screams let loose from the depths of me. I just kept trying to find the silver lining through it all.
I am working towards a goal. Staying focused on what I need to do for me. It’s a bit scary to have all decisions fall on me and me alone. At times it is overwhelming. I take a deep breathe and remember that I can do this! I will do this!
It’s okay to be scared. Everyone gets scared. But don’t let it stop you from moving towards your dreams.
No matter what is happening in your life, you have to remember who you are and believe in yourself, always.
My favorite part of my “day”.
I love the quiet.