Song of the Day-Stone Sour, Through Glass

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Angels all Around You

Angels all around you is something we say in my family. My Mom said it a lot. The anniversary of her death is right around the corner. I have been fighting off the emotions this week. I find myself tearing up and fight it off. Not tonight. I am letting the tears flow.

I wrote a poem after she passed. I had a lot happen in such a short time and then I lost my Mom. When you lose someone you love it sure does put everything into perspective. The small things we stress over and such. Like the things I have going on right now. Are they that bad? No. Stressful? Yes.

No, what I have going on is mourning with every day life events taking the blame. Not tonight. The next few weeks will likely be a rollercoaster of emotions.

Sad Songs

I was not really sure what to write about for Monday. I have had so much going on and going wrong lately that my thoughts are kinda pfft!

Then I was scrolling Facebook when a music video came on. Evanescence’s song- My Immortal. Such a dark haunting song yet so beautiful. This started the wheels turning.

I love my music as everyone that follows me by now knows. I love all kinds of music. I will admit that Country is probably my least favorite genre, but it still has some great songs to offer. If you saw my iTunes, I think you’d be surprised at all the different genres of music that I have. I have classical, country, pop, rock, I got it all! From Barry Manilow to Saliva. 😂

The topic of this particular post is sad songs. What is it about these types of songs? They are not “pick me uppers” by any means. Far from it. I have my moods and my music playlist follows those moods accordingly. If I am very pissed off, I am not doing any Manilow. You can guarantee it will be something loud and rockin’! When I am giddy, I will likely have music going that I can dance to. But then there are times, when I need to embrace my darker emotions. My sadness. It is in those times, I reach for my sad songs.

Some might say that this is adding fuel to the fire. In a way it is. But hear me out on this, maybe that is what is needed in those moments. To pour gasoline on the dark cloud and to let it burn. To feel everything fully. To let tears flow and get that shit out! The best thing one can do when feeling sadness is to allow yourself to feel it.

Too often we hide our pain. I am very good at this. The more I joke the more I am avoiding feeling something. It’s who I am and how I cope mostly. But you cannot do that all of the time. You cannot always put on a happy face and pretend everything is fine. You gotta let yourself feel whatever it is you are feeling. It’s okay to not smile all of the time. Feel it, get it out and then get on with it. That’s what sad songs do for me. Music is therapy!

A Sunday Off, Way Off!

I usually work Sundays but I had the entire weekend off. I’m glad I did. I have been under the weather and needed some down time.

The day started with my washing machine going kaput mid-cycle. I think I may have found a used washer. That is if it is small enough to fit.

I had another incident earlier in the week and this was just too much stress. It’s Sunday, I’m off work and the hits just keep coming! Give me a break! Please!

I decided that to take my mind off of all this chaos, I was going to make some kick ass food for my daughter and myself today.

While cooking, I had a good friend come over to check out my washer and reset it. However it just kept shutting down when we ran a load through. So it is definitely done. That’s been my Sunday “fun day”!

The good news:

  1. My food was the bomb.
  2. I enjoyed some wine while cooking.
  3. I do not need to cook for a few days. Leftovers baby!
  4. I enjoyed some wine.
  5. I have the rest of the day to putter around, nap, whatever!
  6. I enjoyed some wine.